In God's Time
Last week, I had the pleasure to go on a Kairos retreat with my grade level. The experience was unique, something that I have never gotten able to experience in all my years of going to summer camp with different churches. Not that those camps were bad, but that I am in a more difficult place in my life these days. I have a lot going on in my life right now, and everything has gotten pretty overwhelming. In the midst of all this stress, anxiety, and so many other things that have taken over my time recently, I have lost my trust in God. And with losing this, life only got even more stressful. However, this retreat really helped me remember my core, and where I need to get my strength from. There was one thing in particular that stood out to me, and I can’t really say much about it because I do not want to ruin it for people that are going on retreat in the winter and spring. But, this event really made me feel loved as God's child. No matter where I end up, what college I go to, who I am friends with, etc., I will always be loved by God. This is the most important thing. However, I was also reminded that I will always be loved by my family. There are no expectations that I am going to disappoint. In fact, God will never be disappointed in me. This is actually something crazy to understand that I will probably never be able to wrap my head around. No matter how many times I sin and let myself, the world, the people around me down, God still wants me. There is nothing that I can ever do to make him lose his love for me. I think this is exactly what I needed to hear to help me with things that I have been struggling with. My mind was so engrossed in all of the things happening in my life, that I never got the chance to take a step back from the world. Our time on this earth is so temporary, it is of so little importance in the long run. However, we were made to worship and live as God's lights. Although our time here is so temporary and might not seem important, It is crucially important. The Lord deserves our attention more than anything on this earth. I hope that this has maybe helped someone that is struggling, and I wish that everyone could have the experience that I had, to bring them back to what is important in life.